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This is Part II of the original post “Gift Meaning, Give Meaning.”

For those of you who had read the original post, I want to say that this post is related to that post. Except, this is not a Sequel. This story is more similar to a Prelude.

“Gift Meaning, Give Meaning” told a story of a boy who tried to confess to his friend. But it focused on how the girl (the friend) did not notice her friend’s feelings. Whenever this boy would go on vacation, he would tell the girl. The girl would always ask him to bring back souvenirs from his trip.

  • Bringing back souvenirs for the girl has become a habit for the boy. And the girl has never saw anymore meaning in the souvenirs other than a souvenir from a place she has not visited yet.
  • Bringing back souvenirs had become meaningful to the boy. Each gift he brought back for her was special. He would specifically pick out something nice for her.

Little did the girl know that the boy bringing her back souvenirs was a sign that he liked her. But he never directly told the girl that he liked her. He thought that she would get the hint from his souvenirs. A part of him might have been waiting for the girl to confess to him. And a part of the girl may have been waiting for the boy to confess to her.

  • Throughout their time in High School, the boy ends up confessing to numerous girls. Every girl but her.
  • Throughout their time in High School, the girl held onto her feelings for her first love (who was not this boy).
  • These two people were both struggling to find love when this love was always there. Sometimes, if we just step back and look around ourselves, we will notice something. “We will notice that who we have besides us may not be as intriguing as who we cannot have, but who we have was always there.” He(she) may be like an open book to you. But he(she) is only open to you. No one else.

There were many signs. Friends of the two would always ask why didn’t the two of them start dating. But there was something that was more important than love relationships. To this girl, their friendship was more important than having a love relationship. She straight-forwardly told the boy that “she would not date her friends.” 

  • Little did the girl know that her words would have such a big effect on this friendship. She wanted to retain this friendship so she did not want a relationship. But by not wanting a relationship, she strained this friendship.
    • The boy was hurt. He lost confidence and never confessed to her. He built confidence and took his plan step by step. But she shattered it all when she told him “I don’t date friends.”

Even though those were the words that the girl stood by. Subconsciously, this girl did see this boy as a potential partner. Some of the things he did for her, at the time were taken for-granted. But as she got older and looked back on their friendship, she realized. She realized that he was there for her, all the time.

  • After school, they would wait for each other to take the train home.
    • If they did not end at the same period, the girl would wait for the boy for an extra period. She would wait until his class was over to walk with him to the train station and take the train home.
    • Sometimes they would go somewhere after-school together. They would go play handball or travel somewhere for food.
    • When the girl had to go to her place of volunteer, he would accompany her on the train and drop her off at her volunteer place. (Then he would take the train home by himself.)
  • In the morning, the boy would make an effort to wait for the girl at the train station to walk with her to school.
    • The girl would sometimes be late. But he would wait for her until the last minute.
    • On some days when he did not have first period, he would still show up at the train station waiting for her.

One day, back in High School, this girl had a dream. Her dream felt so real. She woke up with an aching heart. In this dream, she saw her boyfriend. But she never saw his face. His face was always blurry every time she tried to look at him, in her dream.

“Many years ago, I had a vivid dream. In this dream there was a guy holding my hand and taking me everywhere with him. Specifically in this dream, he would lead. I was always following behind him, but he held on tightly to my hand. He stood in front of me, as if he was guarding me from all the dangers of the world. I stood behind him, as if he was my shield and guide to bring me to a whole new world. However, whenever we sat down, we would sit together. We would only sit in seats that allowed us to be sitting side by side, next to each other. We never sat in seats that allowed us to face each other. This dream mainly focused on the two of us taking the train together. We were students wearing our backpacks. I still remember that he wore a hoodie. His hair was short, but not too short. He was taller than me, but not too tall.” -Winksfariy12

This dream has a very important meaning. At the time, when she analyzed this dream, the girl thought she was finally going to have a boyfriend. She did not know who he was or where he is. But she felt that having this dream reassured her that one day this guy will show up in her life, to be with her.

But today, as we analyze this dream, we realized that this dream was trying to tell this girl that her potential boyfriend is someone that is besides her. In the dream, they took the train together. In the dream, the boy guided the girl and took her on adventures. In the dream, the girl and the guy never faced each other when they sat down, but they were always sitting together.

  • The boy taking the girl’s hand and guiding her on adventures they took together.
    • The girl in this story would follow the boy to places that he wanted to visit for food. After-school, he would take her with him to food eateries.
    • The boy always took the lead because the girl (of this story) was very shy. She was often scared of crowds, but the boy would still drag her with him. He encouraged her not to be scared because there was nothing to be afraid of.
  • This dream mainly focused on the two of us taking the train together.”
    • These two people’s relationship mainly related to taking the train together after-school. The train was their method of transport to all the places they needed to go: to play handball, to the volunteer location, to the food eateries.
  • We were students wearing our backpacks.”
    • This boyfriend from the dream is most likely someone from school.
  • We would only sit in seats that allowed us to be sitting side by side, next to each other. We never sat in seats that allowed us to face each other.”
    • I think this scene in the dream is the main focus of the dream. This scene tells the dreamer that the boyfriend is someone that is by her side but she does not see him. The boyfriend is right next to her, but she does not know it!
      • Clearly, this dream was telling the girl (of the story) that her friend (the boy with the souvenirs) is the boyfriend! He is someone that is by her side, but she did not see him as a boyfriend even though there were many signs of them acting and being like a couple.

All along, this girl’s conscious was telling her that the boyfriend has already appeared. He was someone that may not have intrigued her interest, but he was someone that was always by her side. Most of the time, what we want is not what we need. Our ideal guy(girl) can be the most perfect person in the world. But at the end of the day, this ideal guy(girl) is not someone that can be with us, support us, and most importantly, accept us for who we are. “Sometimes, the most perfect person for us was someone that we never thought would be our ideal.”-Winksfairy12

For those readers that had read the original post of “Gift Meaning, Give Meaning,” you already know the ending of this story. But what is the moral of this story? I want readers to take a step back from themselves and look at their own lives from a third person perspective. Especially those who are waiting and still searching for love.

  • Is there something missing in your life? (Love)
  • Is this love really missing? (Who do you have with you?)
  • What does love mean to you? (Are you chasing after an ideal?)

Everyone perceives love differently.

  • Some people see love as simple as the fallen seeds of a tree. These seeds have potential to be planted and grow into a tree. Yet, these seeds can also be seeds that never get planted and be recycled back into the environment.
  • Some people see love as strong as the roots of a thousand year old tree. The roots are deeply planted and help hold the structure of the tree. It is not that easy to remove a tree stump once a tree has been cut down.
  • Some people see love as complicated as the branches of two trees growing side by side. The branches grow in whatever direction they please. But sometimes the branches can get in the way and its leaves will fall however they please.

Love cannot be taken for-granted. Most of the time, your ideals are not your perfect match. It is often the underdog, someone who you least expected, that shows up and wins your heart. He(she) wins your heart with his sincerity, not with your standards.

Thank you for reading! 🙂

Daydreams allow us to revisit past memories of ourselves. We will sometimes realize how difficult we were, but that’s okay. Because this is all part of growing up and learning about how we want to go on with our lives. ❤